“God esteems a man who uses prudence and foresight and plans ahead. It is not wrong to have plans, only to have them and not give place for the intervention of God. He has His own specific plans, and sometimes they cross our lives, when they do- Be prepared to yield yours.”
Sorry it’s been so long since I’ve updated. There has been so very much on my mind lately, and I have been overwhelmed in thinking of exactly what to blog about, or how to explain the things that are going on in my life. Honestly- I’m still feeling that way for the most part…..but I want to try!
It’s a long story, and a lot goes into it….but basically- I moved to Missouri this fall with the full intention of starting classes here at MTC as soon as possible. As the semester went on, it was beginning to look like that would be possible next semester (starting in January). I was very excited about that, had been praying about it, and felt really at peace in pursuing that goal. Things were going along great when I was challenged by someone to consider my age in beginning the training here. At nineteen….I am definitely very young compared to most who are here. The people who were advising me about possibly waiting to begin classes here were concerned that I may not have enough life experience to be committed to going onto the field in 2 years and being ready to stay there long term.
Hearing this was a shock to me. I was not expecting to be told….”you’re too young”. I felt like all that I had been planning and working towards came to a screeching halt, and I was left feeling discouraged, frustrated, and overwhelmed by trying to figure out a “new plan”.
When I was in highschool- I was once challenged by someone that so often we make so many plans…and hold onto them so tightly that when God comes along with something genuinely better….we have our hands so full that it is upsetting at times to let go of those and wait for the Lord to fill us with something else…something better.
This is something that the Lord has truly been challenging my heart with. And- I still don’t know what I am going to do. This is not a blog post to say that “okay, I’ve figured it out!”. But instead, one to say…..I have no idea yet what is going to happen, what door the Lord is going to open, or where in the world I will be next semester! But- I trust the Lord. He has always been faithful, and will not cease to be now. He desires our best. He sees the big picture. He hold the world in His hands. He knows my heart, my dreams, my desires……and the way that He wants to use those best for His glory!
I could be here next semester….in classes like I had planned, but with a much humbler heart and greater appreciation of my need to depend on the Lord. I could be somewhere totally different, doing something that I had not even thought of.
So…..I will keep you updated on whatever happens. But- I ask that as you do read this, that you would be in prayer with me as I seek God for direction. Pray that He would make it very clear to me what He would have me to do, and that I would feel a peace and confidence in that path.
Thanks for reading.
“For I know the plans I have for you” declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you- plans to give you a hope and a future.” ~Jeremiah 29:11
-The quote below the picture is taken from the book “Preparing to be a Help Meet” by Debi Pearl